time.

hahahahah, i just read my last post about Alex.
yes,
we are still together.
and yes,
i did finally get attatched.
very attatched.

anyways,
for some stupid reason, I always fall for the seniors that end up leaving me.
even though he's extremely different.
he's nice to me, and kind and he rarely ever disappoints. and i keep thinking that it's just an act that he's gunna get tired off. that i "expect" too much.

but i remember this one time in religion class,
when my teacher taught us that relationships are never fifty-fifty but they shift all the time over time.

anyways, were shifting all the time.
half the time were good, and the other half were not.
actually thats an exaggeration. were good as long as we see each other or talk to each other. and most of the time, it's my fault when things go wrong, because i'm slowly realizing that i'm the world's worst girlfriend and possibly mental. haha joke(; but not really.

For once in my life, i'm attatched to one person only.
i mean, unless there's a really attractive person around me, and i mean really attractive, he's all i see.
which is good, and i want to believe that i'm the only girl he sees, since that's what he tells me.
and he hasn't given me any reason to not trust him, if anything he's been doing nothing but earning major brownie points as we go along.
but maybe it's because i like him so much that i'm just so afraid.
ya know?