but not me.

i hate my school.
i should have gone to the degenerate high school like all my friends.
at least then would it have been easier.
im tired of this.
running around in circles for school work that i could care less about.
i just want to become a TV actress.
but not me.
because whatever i truly want, i always miss out on...
guess the life i've always thrived for will never happen for me.
its not like i had any help anyways.
im tired of living other people dream so that i can get an ounce of support.

it angers me.
i hate everything.
i hate my school.
i hate tests.
i hate the kids at my school.
i hate boys.
i hate things that make my life complicated in a bad way.
i hate negativity.
i hate liars.
i hate those who control others lives.
i hate those ugly children who are prettier than you.
i hate not living my dream.
i could have made it by now.

just today i was planning my life.
all i wanted was a relaxing weekend.
but not me.